The smoking post

meggle did a post today about how she hasn’t had a cigarette in a week.  That is amazing.  She rocks.

I used to be a smoker.  Not a social smoker, but a pack-a-day-girl.  I used to looove smoking, it was the very first thing I used to do in the morning and the very last thing I used to do at night.  I read Alan Carr’s book, I did the cold Turkey thing, I did the Zyban thing, I even tried acupuncture.  The longest I ever didn’t smoke was almost 8 months.  I knew all the reasons why I shouldn’t smoke.  It’s a waste of time, it’s bad for you and the people around you, it’s disgusting, you smell etc etc etc

I used to wish I could be a social smoker.  You know, one of those people that only smoke when they are having a drink and don’t crave one again for weeks.  I’m just not one of those smokers.  My hubby is though.

I smoked through a pregnancy and through the first year of Daniel’s life – a lot less than I used to before I fell pregnant, but still.  We never smoked in our house, but I know now how much we stank when we came in from outside.  And that’s not cool for children.

I finally knew that enough was enough when I realised that we were going to have twins.  And now it’s been almost 2 years.  I still think about cigarettes every now and again at the weirdest times, but I have the thought and feel the feeling and then I let it go.

I’m really glad that I don’t smoke anymore.  I live a lot more “in the moment”, not looking forward to the next smoke.  I try not to be a rabid anti-smoker, but I dodge the smell as far as I can and keep my family as far away from it as possible.

meggle said something so true about not smoking (I refuse to use the words “quitting” or “giving up”, because they imply that you have lost something, when nothing is further from the truth).

She said she “just kinda did it”.  And THAT is at the root of not smoking.  Just.  Do.  It

Now I just have to stop eating…  Any suggestions? 

8 thoughts on “The smoking post”

  1. I didn’t smoke a pack a day, a pack used to last about 3 days, but it was still difficult to stop. I feel you have to want to stop, not just know why you should. Without the WANT, there is no WILL. When I stopped, shortly before finding out I’m pregnant, I wanted to, still had smokes left in the pack, and they lay on the coffee table for about a week before I told hubby he can have them. He still smokes, and it doesn’t bother me. I’m quite chuffed with myself.

  2. I think that I have got to the want to stage, now I am finding my “will”
    Can you believe it a packet of my ciggies now costs R21.00, went up only this week again, I really can’t afford to carry on! xx

  3. I am a smoker and ashamed to say that I don’t even WANT to stop.
    I do realise that my smoking is “killing” my child, but at this stage, there is just no WILL to stop.
    Am I a bad mother?

  4. I was asking hubby how much cigarettes are these days and he only buys a pack about once a month, so he didn’t know. R21 is scary!

  5. I didn’t do this post because I wanted to judge anyone, but it has made a huge difference in Daniel’s health now that I don’t smoke. šŸ™‚

  6. I was also a smoker. It started off socially and continued that way for many years. I am not sure when and how it got to a full time habit but I quit immediately when I was pg with no2. It is hard to quit. I went cold turkey and still crave occasionally. I am sooo glad I don’t do it anymore cos my baby has serious chest issues which would have been aggravated if I’d still been a smoker.
    Well done though. And if you find the secret to stopping with the eating then please share cos I need to stop eating as well.

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