The day my head exploded

exploding_headI haven’t blogged in ages. Not that I haven’t thought about blogging. I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about blog posts and things I *need* to write down.

Thing is, I haven’t come up with anything that wasn’t either very sad or very angry or wasn’t a stream of incoherent drivel or didn’t sound like the horror of middle-class problems.

Sad because I feel like I can’t say anything about the imminent death of Madiba because it doesn’t feel like he belongs to me and who am I to call him Tata. It feels like I’ve been sitting in the voorkamer waiting for death to take him away. It’s exhausting. I have already spent enough time crying after watching this Johnny Clegg video and it really feel like the entire country is in limbo.

Angry because of the ANC’s electioneering during this time. It infuriates me beyond belief to see Jacob Zuma use Madiba’s imminent death to his own benefit. Angry also because people like Steve Hofmeyr and Dan Roodt are fanning the flames of racial hate. These people all make me cringe and  embarrassed to a. be South African and b. be Afrikaans. Fuckers.

Incoherent drivel because there is just too much going on in my head at the moment between work and planning to go away next week. Organise car / what to pack / plan menu / sort out kid activities for plane / plan packing / check flights / interview Au pairs / sort out girly grooming crap / make lists / make lists of things I need to make lists of / delinquent dog that needs to be sorted / make sure the animals are taken care of when we’re away / make sure house sitters have food / check on domestic worker and so on and so forth.

Middle-class problems because, ag, don’t worry, I couldn’t be bothered to talk about finding an Au Pair for our kids here. Know that I’m worried and stressed about our kids and what’s best for them. For the last week it’s been a mad dash every day to interview people at home.

But I don’t feel guilty. So I guess that’s a thing.

Today is my last working day before we are off to Durban for a week and I think we are all at the end of our tethers today as I hear Mignon had an epic meltdown when Etienne dropped them off at aftercare this morning.  (to be honest, she had a meltdown this morning when I put my foot down about the short-sleeve bolero jacketS she wanted to wear over a sleeveless dress.

Almost there!

sleepingps. I took this pic of the girls sleeping last night, I love how Mignon had her hand against Isabel’s head.  Whenever they sleep in our bed we find them touching in some way, it’s such a twin thing.  Posting it felt voyeuristic, I’m not sure I’ll publish another pic of them sleeping again. It somehow feels wrong now, I can’t really explain why.  My head might just really explode.

pps. any suggestions of things for the kids to do on the plane?  They were very keen to play hide and seek on the plane, but I don’t think so.  We might rather unpopular..

6 thoughts on “The day my head exploded”

  1. Oh honey! It’s no wonder your head exploded. Shoo! That is a lot going on. Apparently sticker books work wonders on the plain for little kids but I haven’t tried it myself. Maybe a portable DVD player (if you could borrow one from someone)? Also put some games on your phone like bubble burst and let you kids play on the plain. You could even bring out the old pen and paper and teach them how to play noughts and crosses or let them doodle or play POP (make the dots and let them race to finish making boxes by taking turns to join the lines up). Good luck with your trip and everything you need to sort out xx

  2. Loved this post! Agree with everything!
    Guess what, we will also be in KZN from the 6th – we are headed to Southbroom though. Luckily the kids love flying, it’s the trip from King Shaka down the coast that I know will be more of a drama. Perhaps they will sleep…

  3. Jack walked up and down the isle of the plane when we went down to Cape Town!

    Take the iPad or any other games you have!

    I am not sure where I stand on this whole Mandela thing. It saddens me deeply that he is passing but the hoopla around it really bothers me 🙁

  4. Books are the best thing for a plane, because they are quiet. My advice is to not take crayons – inevitably they will roll of of the little table, and then down the aisle of the plane.

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